leaving.

it's been a few days since i've had time to reflect. i almost forgot about this place, and my thoughts have been floating.
it's strange how when you leave a place you really start to see thing, like who yr friends are, and people who actually care for you, and those that respect you and those that could care less. we build all these illusions with each other, pretending with happiness, but it's really just mediocrity. i'm pretty apathetic about the whole thing, considerably. i'm not really sure there is a perfect place to be, just where we need to be and where we are at the moment.
i chopped all my hair off and dyed it copper red. i wanted to look like a james bond spy, but i don't think i'm skinny enough for that. all attention is drawn to the features of my face. i feel exposed and rather unashamed of who i am.
i know this journey is gonna forever change my path. another fork in the road. i'm ready for the ice and the end of hibernation. i'm ready to drive into sunsets and leave the remaining parts of myself with the desert, where the power of the sun lives. i will always be here. my memory is attached on some spirit realm to this epic landscape. in my dreams i will die here.