little unicorn flower
poetry, poetic prose, experimental expression: my journey with words, meanings, memories, love and dreams.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
god found.
to travel to the outside worlds you must be pure.
to be pure you must know god.
Friday, August 17, 2012
new god.
the formless form,
the limitations set by the no-self
self-less,
the rose bud in the thorn.
is it the many gods
of whom you've known,
the worlds beyond this one,
such radical possibilities
do exist.
how extremely optimistic to think
of the many things
which bear no fruits here,
to think all poison
as an offering of the moon.
if you were my child,
and i were god,
i would have created you in the image of beauty as well.
who's tongue do you breathe from,
which form you endure,
in the many moons
of children,
that keep you in the womb.
do those moon-rays complete the psyche?
is it like god to make these delusion so permissible.
who's god do you believe in?
which world has you
forgotten in the
radical possibility
that your existence
may endure.
God in the formless
God if form,
God in the many,
God without light,
God forgotten,
God without memory.
to miss ;
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
dream.
Mars
Monday, February 20, 2012
No Love has a Dream.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
married
Monday, October 10, 2011
settling.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
the day of the dead
Friday, April 22, 2011
The Love of Netzach
What does it mean to Endure?
The healing trip of two people wounded
And bound by the Eternal, One
Love.
Some say love is healing,
But love takes endurance~netzach
To wake up loving someone
Everyday, even when they’re
Difficult,
Intolerable,
Irrational,
Unwilling
is hard work.
To stay when nothing you want is happening.
To believe when nothing you wish is becoming.
To wait for some parts that may never appear.
What does it mean to Endure my love?
To push it through the finish line?
Sweating,
Feeling the lungs collapse, the breath harden,
As if there was some prize at the finish line.
Perhaps to endure is,
To hold the glory of,
I made it to the end,
That was impossible,
But I pushed my limits,
I did it,
That’s the metaphor of the kind of love
G-d responds to.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
undue.
when there's nothing left for you to give.
where there's nothing left for you to feel.
why there's nothing left for you to trust.
i'm told to thank g-d for this for this decent, into nothing; where your love is waiting.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
the godless form.
perhaps now that i have been cracked, edged towards shattered,
i will experience the totality of this, your 'love.'
how cruel the gods must have been
to have thought love, capable for human consumption.
how cruel this dense universe
to make me belong.
were not flowers meant for rain?
spare me,
the gripping nature,
the death of creation.
i would much rather
be with out.
how easy space must feel,
left alone, without force, form, or pleasure.
Love as Question.
Love as prayer, meditation, or blessing...
Love as the Cosmic Symbiosis.
Love as Mystery.
Dream Rant.
i miss myself, the music, how i sang,
how i had a vision of myself immersed
in melody,
transcendence,
dense purples,
and space-time,
without any dimensions.
I haven't played an instrument for so long.
I've been feeling as if I left myself,
and entered the parallel mundane dimension of reality.
I use to believe that I could thrive in my imagination alone.
I use to have a sense of self,
in my youth, (or ignorance)
that I really felt I could 'hold on'
to something,
even if it wasn't real.
I find with maturation
the ripeness of fruit
submit to a form
of compost,
as if there is nothing
to live for,
like all wisdom has subsided the fairy tale.
I wanted to re-enter the galaxy,
be the child that doesn't see any balance or form,
I want to re-live the world of dreams,
holding on the the songs,
with intense passion,
that made me believe I didn't have to hold on to being here.
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
the g-d of form.
it is women that were meant for poetry.
you take my form,
mold it,
I am some clay-dust,
founded on dense ash,
my body swelters at your beginning.
you play some god,
I become a woman
at your finger tips,
a space to fill
your blackness.
you become the sun,
pouring me with the
experience of beauty,
- it is I who
will worship your radiance.
you create an altar
around my form,
rose petals, sage, sea shells,
fresh fruit-
you ask me to fulfill you,
you beg questions with answer,
I begin to understand what
G-d must feel like.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
dear love,
our existence, that no longer is "ours,"
but a part of the infinite universe.
as we disentangle our faith,
release the body from it's embrace,
will you feel my form float into ether?
I will vanish to your senses,
but to earth, I am still here.
It is in our death,
that our bodies will merge into being,
shatter all light, and create possibilities,
of Divine Union into existence.
Dear Love,
I have welcomed you here,
now moments have bestowed upon us,
only memories,
gardens,
a yearning for dreams.
Must we always part so illusive to the eye?
I cannot grip my hands enough
to engage memory.
It is here and now,
that I sit with the sorrow
deeply lit above the rib cage.
I ask of my becoming,
why dost the journey tread with pain?
The journey, the voice says,
in search of love is,
like the journey in search of God.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
bird man.
and whisper at the base of your spine;
your body will shutter
at the speed of my breathe.
It will tantilze your mind,
into believing,
that a light body is real.
you will press your hands
upon me,
to clear all memory
now.
I will be your arrival,
when Holy Light
comes into being.
You will walk the distant sun,
into the shore,
where the dead birds fall,
bodys for the sand.
The conch shells of mermaids
will drawn you in,
to the whirlwind
of eternal fire.
I float with my body there, a green printed dress,
as if the earth will succumb me.
You gaze into me from a distance,
you know I will be the woman that bears your children.
You can taste my legs,
as if the budding honey suckel,
will only wither with time.
I become the pavement,
figured in the stone-sand,
my feet bare the sharpness
of ocean earth rock.
We become the tobacco
that you infume,
the misdirected post-signs,
the endless pathways that leads
to a difference in crossing.
I am home,
where the rivers are contant,
and there really isn't
a place of 'belonging,"
to a person ,
place,
or thing.
You follow the north wind home,
you are a bird,
towards the center of the sun,
you become,
a pagan to the distant moon.
II. a dream.
You forwarn me, that the time
is coming,
the gates are closing.
A dream of your hand disappearing
into the distance...
Imagine a tunnel,
black, lit at the end
with a glowing white light.
an ascended being
stands before it,
you cannot tell
who it is,
but upon closeness,
that being becomes you.
I remain here where
the light is closing,
realizing the death,
of becoming alive.
I stay tuned into the radio waves,
but your shadows disappear.
I am this, I am.
I am, I am.
Saturday, October 02, 2010
a new home to call home.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
It's a strange fruit.
It just seems totally cliche for my personality to do something so typical like that, live a circus dream, on the road, chasing rainbows, pretending like G-d is somewhere on this escaping pony to Nirvana.