the desert

the sun came and went today. i felt useless. my body just ached and ached. i tried to be productive but my own mental interruptions prevailed. i was having a hard time understanding today, blurriness... i feel like a failed friend, because of my own weaknesses. stranded in the desert, i pictured the scene perfectly in my mind, did i make it happen? the gust of wind that danced the dirt and sand into motion, left you alone. maybe all these signs are more than pictures, maybe they are stories we will tell our children about how we are left alone, in the desert moon light, awaiting a savior, a friend that never comes. i wish that savior into me.