dream.

i had a peculiar dream last night. i don't want to put so much focus on it, but it felt like it had significance. i dreamt that i was in love with a murderer, and a murderer was in love with me? what does that mean...well i won't get into that yet, but i will explain the rest of the dream. the person, which really didn't have a physical presence in my life, but i felt him, i knew him. he had a desire to preform surgeries on people, find people's body's and cut their centers open and remove their hearts. it sounds really sick i know, but he was a master as this and he was very meticulous and careful, and he felt it was his calling to god?? (this really sounds twisted i bet). anyway, the way we met was he was after my body and wanted to remove my heart, but he was so in love with me that he couldn't and he couldn't see me. but the love between us was so inseparable and intense. even though i knew he had this mental distortion and was really twisted, i loved him. then, he taught my father how to do the same thing, and my father joined him on one of his surgical journeys. my mom knew about it and was totally frightened for me and called me warning me to stay away, that my life was threatened. but i had total faith in my love for this man, and his love for me, despite this twist, that i knew everything would be ok.

Mars

you are the god of war,

lit on the backdrop of desire,

your brilliant black light,

feeds the countless stars.

i dream of making love

under your rule.

i dream of overtaking

your power.

i dream of my lust

being destroyed by you.